Volume 1
June 15
I am a dandy: my pocket money goes into greys
dark blues, blue jeans, lapels, top hats -
why not? I am: the girl
the boy, the everything, the fresh air breathing in-between
June 8, 2022
I lie in bed and sweat for
secreats. I sweat for the years
I’ve spent hiding myself
June 1, 2022
A bull in a china shop, my gender
is an obligation of restraint,
responsibility not to trample
Others
May 25, 2022
I looked up in the mirror as I washed my hands, and I think for the first time I saw something that I could identify as mine.
May 18, 2022
although there is no body that is malformed or misshapen there are bodies that have been formed and reformed with lustful malice, i fear (for) myself i fear
Cavar, i have wondered
May 11, 2022
A handsome young adventurer
Off to be someone’s knight
in a glittering gown.
May 4, 2022
i am the most loathsome weight
to shoulder. i am a calamity responsible
for ruins, a catastrophe by comparison
to how i’ve broken down
April 27, 2022
see something OR say
something // ill say
something
Sterling-Elizabeth Arcadia, Love Poem Dragging a Poet Who Doesn’t Deserve It
April 20, 2022
Darling, I'm just desperate for a body I do not have It's enough to make this young person cry
K.Blair, Orville Peck Gives Me Gender Envy And What The Fuck Am I Supposed To Do With That?
April 20, 2022
Orville Peck Artwork
Image ID: Pen and Ink drawing of Orville Peck in various poses in a comic style frame above text that reads: Orville Peck Gives Me Gender Envy And What The Fuck Am I Supposed To Do With That
April 13, 2022
Image ID: black and white grided collage image of a person built of organic and mechanical components
April 6, 2022
I’m 2 in a dress.
I’m 3 and on a couch.
I’m 6 and in a school uniform.
I’m 12 and looking for a way out.
March 30, 2022
wearing a jock is like wearing a plate the world
an acclaimed restaurant the ass
an allyoucaneat buffet I ate my fill
March 23, 2022
I can’t wear dresses
anywhere but the cement
cage that is my apartment
March 16, 2022
do you have the ticket //
there aren’t any for that //
not for you
March 9, 2022
It is invisible but not imaginary.
Just as the children in this town,
March 2, 2022
Image ID: black and white image depicting a standing human, knees to neck, organs exposed, on the left overlayed with another human kneeling, hands tucked between their knees. Obscurring that are a hand spread with a person curled, hugging their knees, centered over a black circle over the widest point and two rectangles - on showing a weeping eye & the other, two arms crossed over a torso - in the upper right corner.
March 2, 2022
the secret of it all is, you emptied
your own mind bent over the bed
until it all fell out
February 23, 2022
Image ID: A face, head and shoulders. Over one eye, the words “outside the store”, over the mouth “walk past an empty lot”, on the neck “morning routine”. The face has stubble, and what little can be seen of the expression seems messy and tired.
February 16, 2022
please, let me be seen.
let me love, and let it be awkward and odd and
a little too tall to kiss just right.
let it be safe.
Ryan Orme/Elle Emerson, November to August